All healing goes through the heart.
When I was in junior high in Long Island, I used to listen to the Long John Nevel radio show, where he would talk about everything from astral projection to meditation. The program would go on from 10pm to 5am and I would stay in my bedroom fighting sleep, not wanting to miss anything. In my everyday life, everything seemed phony where people’s focus was on material progress in their own lives. My inner world was more about exploration, discovery of Tibetan masters and meditation through my imagination and the radio shows. Living in New York there were museums, coffee houses, music venues, Greenwich Village, books, and art and then my everyday world of going to school and dealing with the tension between the rich and working class kids. I felt I could visit all these different worlds but not belong in either. Looking back, that became the theme of my life’s work; exploring and discovering everything I can but never fully becoming one part of a community.
What became apparent to me was that the human race continued to be frustrated, reactive and disrespectful for all living forms. So the main question for me became, “How do we help each other get well and live lives of health and purpose?”
In response to that question, I began exploring meditation and to my surprise I got a lot of interest from other kids who were looking for something else other than just hanging out and looking for trouble in the park. I also began writing a book of poetry which I called, “The Revelations of the Insane.” That started getting a lot of response from all kinds of characters. I wrote three chapters and never completed the project. As I continue to teach, more and more people would show up and some of them introduced me to jazz, beat poetry, and a new way of looking at things.
I started working, and then traveling as a teenager. At the age of 17, I left the United States which took me to many places around the world, learning from many different types of teachers and studying in many different academic fields.
In 1966, I found myself in my first Kabbalah class, in Jerusalem, where I learned that there was a structure to the process of making a thought manifest. Within this structure, there was no mention of evil, suffering, confusion, violence; all that was due to imbalances and poor choices made by humans on this planet. The creation came about for the purpose of actualizing a potential into something more conscious than the original. In order for anything to expand, it needed first to contract and that all of life was an expression of higher intent.
So at the age of 18, I realized that life was precious. It was designed to produce something beyond our ability to comprehend; that suffering and ill-health distorts our original intention and purpose; and there must be a way to heal and repair the damage that our poor choices had brought to us.
And thus began my 35 year quest to find the healing process that was buried within us, every cell, every crystal and every possibility that has not been creatively expressed.